That picture isn’t of me. It’s just a picture of what I wish I looked when I’m doing crow pose.
The (totally unannounced) hiatus I took from this blog in the last four months had nothing to do with stepping back to re-work it and now returning to announce a new and improved website.
It happened because I’ve been working on crow pose.
Crow pose is incredible because, well . . . it’s hard. But when you get there you’re floating. And you work and work and work for it and, well . . . it’s still hard. But, then in a most unexpected moment suddenly you hit this sweet spot. The balance becomes just right and you’ve pulled everything into alignment just so and there you are. Floating in crow.
And it suddenly isn’t as hard as it is.
And it’s amazing because you are focused and clear and balanced.
If you’re me, it’s a fleeting moment (like, really fleeting; like, most days, mere seconds if that). But even that fleeting moment makes the seemingly millions of tries to get to there totally worth it and the million yet to come less work and more desire.
So, I wrote a book. And I finished it in early March, just over a month ago. And it was hard and took a long time to get there. But, in January, February and March I hit this sweet spot. I was still working (hard) but everything came into balance for a moment and things aligned and I worked toward a deadline. And it felt amazing.
But just like getting into a crow pose, I had to release a lot of stuff for that kind of focus to exist. (I also had to have an amazing partner on the home front willing to catch a lot of stuff I released. Thanks CP.)
This blog was one of those things I released.
But, it’s back and I’m back at it, because the book is done.
(Incidentally, the book is called Dear White Christians: For Those Still Longing for Racial Reconciliation. It’ll be out this November. And, just so you know, even though it’s most specifically for a church audience, because it looks at what U.S.-American churches are saying and doing about race, I’m convinced it has a lot to engage non-Christians too and you don’t have to be a “person of (any) faith” to take the argument seriously.)
So thanks for being patient. I hope you didn’t give up on me. I’m still writing and thinking about how social structures shape us and how we can engage in transformative practices that enable us to be people who create more just, compassionate social structures. And especially writing and thinking about racial justice, whiteness, queer life and community. I’m still obsessing about yoga and trying to be a decent mom.
Coming into balance about all of that stuff is a constant movement into and, more often, out of alignment. Sometimes it feels more amazing than others. But just like I almost always feel on the yoga mat, I’m grateful to at least know the landscape I care about; the questions that give me meaning. And I’m grateful that other folks (like you) care about similar landscapes.
So, more soon (very soon!).